1 year anniversary

I used to celebrate anniversary with my ex-bfs for the years we were together and i could not believe myself that i'm writing this now. Yes, it was exactly 1 year ago he called it off. All i know that time is only have tears oozing out from my eyes non-stop when he told me that he has lost the feelings towards our relationship. It was the first time ever i felt that I've lost everything. It hurts so bad up to the extend that i could still remember till this day. Each song that plays, whom i meet, things that i see or hear will always trigger me to remember every single happy moment i was with him. Before the move to Singapore, I have told myself that i want to delete everything about him and move on with my life. When he is completely out of my life now, i actually miss him! irony isn't it ?

I will be going back home tomorrow for cny break. At the same time, he will be leaving to overseas trip with his family. It's his annual family affair and i was once accepted as part of his family. Courtesy wise, i still text his sister who is my buddy now to wish them safe flight and may they enjoy the trip. When i least expect it, one of my girlfriends broke the news to me that he and his current gf split. I do not know whether this is good or bad. To my close friends, obviously they will be happy as he deserves it. On the other hand, i sympathize him and that gf of his actually blogged about him - detailing all his attitudes which are exactly i used to point out. NO matter what, he is still him and the G that i know. G, whatever had happened between us, i'm still hoping for the best for you. Take it as an experience and learn from there. I was at low point but as long as you believe in yourself, everything will be OK :).

I have been working for the past few days and i foresee it will be worse after cny. I can start to feel the stress air rushing in and i'm hoping that i can really keep up the pace and go through this tax filing season. i really hope i could catch up fast so can help other team members where required. My Malaysian friends in Singapore have been really very good to me. My life journey in Singapore will shine even brighter because of them. Thanks to you all ! Without you all, there won't be tomorrow for me...wink wink !!

I have not been sleeping much lately due to late nights. Well, at least i do have a few close friends to talk to. I miss the time chatting with the one you love on the phone every single night before you fall asleep. I think that's the best feeling ever and i feel lucky in a way that i got to experience it. Though it doesn't last but at least i had it.

Fon