I'm back in my hometown after 3 years

Why 3 years?? good question ! I have no reason to come back to KT as my parents go to KL once every 2 months and most of my hometown friends are currently working in KL. Basically, if i ever make a trip back home is to relax and enjoy some home cooked food. Yes, I always love the sea breeze from South China Sea. I'm proud to say that it is a nice place to relax and having to walk for only 5 mins to reach the beach....where can you find in the city like KL ? Below are some pics taken when I make a walk to the beach yesterday evening. KT still looks the same but with broader roads and highways coming up. I could see more tourists too.

There are some ppl fishing....

The waves....

A very angry sky......

Fon @ KT

My first online purchase

I did an online purchase @ http://www.amazon.com/ few weeks back and the package arrived earlier than I expected. I would say that I had an extremely good experience doing online shopping. The service was great as they actually notified me when my package was shipped and only charged my credit card on the day they shipped it. Somehow you could get some best buy items via online. I got myself a special edition CD from Kavana. Well, Kavana was popular during my teenage days. If I'm not mistaken, I was only 15 - 16 back then and went crazy over him. He is too cute !! Too bad for him that he didn't make it far after 2 albums. Anyway, I still adore his songs. Below is my purchase :-

Cool eh??

I truly love it ! One of the best buy in year 2008 :)

Fon

Hectic weekends

It has been a hectic week for me since i got back from Tioman trip last weekend. It was a fun trip and managed to interact with some new colleagues which are seated at different floors. The whole trip made me realise that life goes on everyday..whether is good or not, we just have to make the best out of it with no regrets. Though the trip was fun but i tired myself out. I was down with sore throat on the way back from Tioman to KL. Few days after that I lost my voice. Luckily it was only for one day but now i still cough a little as the throat still feels dry although i had made myself drink so much of water and was also on medication.

I'm currently in Singapore and will blog about it later the reason why I'm here. I arrived at SG yesterday evening and was invited to attend a party at Attica, Clark Quay. My cousin, S went to claim her Champagne since it was her birthday. Before we hopped on to Attica, we had some drinks at Le Noir. It was my first time to try out Mojito though i heard about it. It was getting crowded when midnight approached. Overall, it was a great night out with two of cousins and their friends. I reached Aunt Alice's house at about 3am. I felt bad as it had already been bad enough to trouble them over the weekend. I'm trying not to trouble them so much. I can't wait for tomorrow to be over and go back to KL.

One thing I can't believe that i will be out of KL during the 4 weekends in Oct. When i get back to work on Tuesday, i will be flying off to KT - back to hometown after 3 years !!!! Hope this time i could have a relaxing break before my first treasure hunt on 31st Oct to 2 Nov to Pulai Spring. I'm so looking forward to it as this time i'll be travelling with MY, one of my best buddies. It is also our first trip cum "treasure hunt" together though we used to be roommate and have been friends for so long. It was so last minute that we managed to get a team of 4 (trick-or-treat) to register for the hunt. Thanks to YP for asking me to join ! We are going to have loads of fun :)

Guess my life is going to start from zero again. I need to forget the past and move on completely. Will it be better after this? Honestly, I really don't know but just have to take one step at a time and live life to the fullest. I would be in the search of my real love too.....does it actually exist ? Perhaps not eh. what matter the most is i had been in love before and with no regrets.

Fon

Ipod, coffee & me.

I'm addicted to black coffee ever since i came back from Ho Chi Minh City, Vietnam earlier this year. I bought the coffee powder back to let my family members try. Somehow I made myself a cup of Vietnamese Coffee (blue mountain) while surfing the net last night. It was such a good feeling to drink a cup of hot coffee when you just laze at home all by yourself. The aroma is just irresistable ! In fact, I have been trying black coffee once a week during lunch or dinner. Black coffee is the only type of coffee that won't make me feel dizzy and uneasy. Guess my hunt for black coffee from all over the world has just begun....

I mentioned in my previous blog that I got an ipod as a gift this year. Yes, it is the best gift !!!! I just can't live without it. Recently, i just added so many latest and my favourite songs so i could listen to them wherever i'm......

During my sleepless nights....

This is really a cool gadget which can entertain you 24/7.

During bedtime....

Thanks to Apple for such great creation !

Fon

How could I get a truthful answer ?

Yesterday I finally got myself out from the house. That because Bee asked me to join her for a swim at Shah Alam Aquatic Centre. Unfortunately, it was closed when we reached there but was opened for their own staff. It was so unfair ! Since we were so eager to swim, Bee suggested to check out the club house owned by BNM. Since the club house opened its door couple of weeks ago, Bee only went there once for badminton. We were lucky that the club was opened on daily basis till 10pm. It is new with modern architecture and most importantly it has all the club house facilities i.e. tennis, badminton, squash, swimming pool, spa (I was so surprised!!! so cool), pool room, karaoke etc. There are about 200 ++ rooms available for BNM staff and visitors worldwide esp those who are invited to the bank for seminars, courses and conferences. Too bad i didn't bring my cam along to take pics of that cool place. The club house is obviously opened for BNM staff so i had to pretend i was one of the staff to sneak in. hahha....we were lucky enough to have one of the security guards to bring us around to check out the place. I was amazed really !!

We had a good swim and headed for dinner after we showered. Bee brought me to Paramount Garden for dinner. I was so hungry and in the mood to order all kinds of food. So i ordered a plate of Fried Sotong, Claypot Curry Fish Fillet with Rice and a plate of Hokkien Mee + Mee Hoon to share. Guess what....we finished them all !!!! Gosh, isn't great to be in the mood of eating ? Bee enjoyed herself and she told me that was like the first time for her to eat so much after so long. The food was just so appetizing and you just can't resist. haha. I got home about 10 plus and my bro was helping me to add songs into my ipod since i will be off to Tioman for company trip next weekend. It's going to be a relaxing one as i plan to bring my books to read by the beach while listening to my ipod. So looking forward to it.....

Today afternoon I had a lunch appointment with JN which was long outstanding. We tried the set lunches at San Francisco Steakhouse which was opened at SS17. It wasn't too bad but can be better :p. We had a long chat to catch up with each other lives. Found out more about my ex and he still the same old person. I wonder when will he grow up and start thinking about future. I used to be worried about him so much till I lost myself. Now no longer need to worry anything about him but I wish things will be good for him in future (even though i still hate him for giving up on me that time). Guess I'm just too nice....Good Luck G!

I'm listening to my ipod now and each song that i listen will bring back all the memories - bitter and sweet esp about the person who gave me this ipod. He said he will care for me no matter what. I really wonder whether he still cares ??? He said he is tight down with work but i feel that it's more like avoiding me completely. Yes, it is a right thing to do i.e. to prevent me from planting any more seeds as it may not even grow to be a tree. I really want to tell him that I'm not planting anymore seeds but instead to thank him for making me realise that there are more things for me to explore out there and have the desire to see more. All I hope for is to get a truthful answer from him whether can we still be best friends like how we used to be? If you can't tell me face to face, perhaps tell me in my dreams.

I was reading someone's blog recently who actually asked whether how you know when you are actually in love and how you know that it was not a rebound. Is it that easy to say "I Love You" and mean it ? To me, it is never easy as i know myself very well when i'm really in love with that person. It is a feeling which you just can't describe. Your heart starts beating fast when you are with that person and everything is so mutual as though you have known that person for years. Those who actually read my blog will always advise me to be realistic but sometimes it is just so hard to face reality. Sigh...I shall wait and see when this will happen to me once again or probably it will not even happen in the near future. Love is not important for now but it is something I can't live without.

I noticed something about me recently....hahha....i think I'm putting on weight. Though I can still wear my pants and skirts.....somehow my arms got bigger. Would it be due to badminton and swimming lately ?? hahah....I don't mind to have firmer arms. WTF !!! I'm just healthy and fit.

Fon

Fish Tank

I miss the fish tank below......

Relationship is like maintaining the fish tank - it will never last !

Fon

A long raya break

My company has been generous to let us enjoy an extra day off during raya and CNY. This year it was a continuous one from 1 to 3 Oct 2008 followed by a weekend so i have 5 days in total. It is indeed nice for having such a long break without the need of taking extra days off. This is the only year i think that i do not have any plans at all. Somehow i do have plans in mind but just too lazy to organize and moreover it involves $$$ so just forget it. I just have to be a good girl and stay @ home...in a way to save some money. I have been going online to read news, blogs and update my facebook. There are lots of reading to do and basically it will never end.

The last weekend I organized a birthday dinner for Bee and invited 3 of her close buddies (Stephers, Sharon and Saw Wen) to surprise her. I was glad that it worked out well especially for Bee. She deserved a blast birthday celebration. Stephers and Bee had blogged about it and most of the priceless moments were captured in their blog. Sweet ones !!

I don't think i can prevent myself for not thinking about the past especially when I'm all alone. It seems so hard to erase those memories away. Sigh...It got worse when seeing my ex putting up all sort of pics with his current girl. I was happy for him that he found someone new who can makes him happy and hope he could treat her well. Another part of me somehow felt so betrayed that he dumped me and got himself a new girl in such a short notice. He is indeed someone who can fall in love so easily. Perhaps, he has been the one to call it off in all his past relationships...that's why he could not feel the lost and also he is afraid of being lonely. Who doesn't feel it? who likes to be lonely? I don't think anyone out there wants to feel this way but sometimes we just have to accept the fact that it is happening. I was pretty shocked that a few weeks ago that he msg me over msn to ask me how am i. I did reply him to say that I'm doing fine which in fact i'm doing good. No doubt about it. Nevertheless, I just can't see myself carry any good conversation with him as I have lost faith in him even as a friend.

I do see some progress in my career move. After this raya, i hope to see more progress as it will be the time that i will have a word with my bosses. I need their support for my future career development. Hope all will turn out well. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that hope that I'm making a wise decision this time for myself. If i don't take the risk now, I will not know whether it will turn out well. I was never a risk taker and always want to play it safe. This time i hope i'm making a right choice. Even if it doesn't turn out well, I know I can still turn back and start all over again. It is somehow a right time to move especially i have no attachments or commitments that hold me back.

It has been like a month, I do not have a good conversation with him. He is leaving me in the dark as I do not know what is he thinking now. Does he still wants to be friends with me or hopes to ditch me away by giving cold shoulder to me? I do not know what i have done that he would treat me this way. It was partly my fault that I jump into conclusion too fast but is he aware that he has to take some responsibilities on this whole incident ? He held himself back after opened his door for me. Right now, I don't even care about pursuing further with him or not as it isn't important anymore but it is painful to lose a friendship that i just build. I still miss the good old conversations that we used to have and the stories we used to share. All i ask for is to maintain the friendship we used to have. Can we?

I can't wait to have a good swim later. Hope i could see a different perspective after dipping myself in the pool.

Fon

I Stay in Love with You

Mariah Carey - I Stay In Love lyrics

Oh, baby Baby
I stay in love with you

Dying inside cause I can't stand it
Make or break up
Can't take this madness
We don't even
Really know why
All I know is baby
I try and try so hard
To keep our love alive

If you dont' know me
At this point
Then I highly
Doubt you ever will
I really need you
To give me
That unconditional love
I used to feel
It's no mistaking
We're just erasing
From our hearts
And minds
And I know we said let go
But I kept on hanging on
Inside I know it's over
You're really gone
It's killing me
Cause there ain't nothing
That I can do
Baby I stay in love with you

And I keep on
Telling myself
That you'll come
Back around
And I try to front
Like "oh well"
Each time you let me down
See I can't get over you now
No matter what I do
But baby, baby I stay in love with you

Na, na, na, na, na
Na, na, na, na
Na, na, na, na, na
Na, na, na, na, na
Na, na, na, na, na
Na, na, na

Baby I stay in love with you
It cuts so deep
It hurts down to my soul
My friends tell me
I ain't the same no more
We still need each other
When we stumble and fall
How we gon' act
Like what we had
Ain't nothin' at all now
Hey What I wanna do is
Ride shotgun next to you
With the top down
Like we used to
Hit the block
Proud in the SUV
We both know
Our heart is breaking
Can we learn
From our mistakes
I can't last
One moment alone
Now go I know
We said let go
But I kept on hanging on
Inside I know it's over
You're really gone
It's killing me
Cause there ain't nothing
That I can do
Baby I stay in love with you
And I keep on
Telling myself
That you'll come
Back around
And I try to front
Like "oh well"
Each time you let me down
See I can't get over you
Now no matter what I do
Baby, baby I stay in love with you

We said let go
But I kept on hanging on
Inside I know it's over
You're really gone
It's killing me
Cause there ain't nothing
That I can do
Baby I stay in love with you
And I keep onYelling myself
That you'll come
Back around
And I try to front
Like "oh well"Each time you let me down
See I can't get over you
Now no matter what I do
But baby, baby I stay in love with you
I stay in love
Love Oh, I stay in love

Song lyrics  I Stay In Love lyrics