It has been a while that I didn't take any MC....this year 2008 is the first time. I was down with gastric pain for the past 2 days. This is due to heartache. I can actually feel the chest pain and it is so difficult to breathe. When my heart is hurt, it really hurts so bad! I will lose appetite and gastric pain will come. I don't like the feeling at all but I just can't help it. I'm very vulnerable.
Just imagine someone just told you that you're no longer important in his life anymore not even as a friend. It hurts :( so bad...it's so bad until i can feel my heart is bleeding non stop. I should not let him get into me but it happened. I can sense that there are more and more understandings between me and him. But i do not know how to tell him that I'm not that kind person whom he thinks I'm. He had made a wrong assumption towards me. Probably, the best solution here is to withdraw myself completely from him if that will make him happier as i know that no point explaining myself to someone so stubborn like him. The drawback of this solution is I will appear as the bad person in his eyes forever. Well, if that is what he wants :(.
However, i know very well that i will always be the best he ever had. I know he will definitely regret some day.
Fon
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Monday, April 28, 2008
Street Kings
It was a boring weekend - Stayed whole day at home on Sat watching drama series and facebooking. Only Sun, I went out with new friends. We went to watch Street Kings . It was a brilliant movie with Keanu Reeves in it (he's my fav actor...drool...). The whole movie talked about how "dirty" and corrupted the cops are. They can do anything just to gain power and make the innocents ones suffer. Overall, two thumbs up !! =)
Today damansara toll was so jammed up and I'm late again to work...sigh...seriously can't predict the traffic everyday. I just have to wake up same time and go to work same time. hehe...don't care much whether i'm late or not. Sometimes the traffic is smooth and sometimes the traffic is bad. It's just crazy. Today work is alright too. It's manageable. After work I went to eat "lok lok" with my colleagues. It was the first time standing by the road while enjoying "lok lok" but it can be quite pricy. I only had 5 sticks and cost me RM6.
I will be going to Kijal this weekend with a bunch of friends. Looking forward to a relaxing trip. Not going to think about anything but just relax.....thinking about the coconut trees by the beach and listening to the sea breeze.
Fon
Today damansara toll was so jammed up and I'm late again to work...sigh...seriously can't predict the traffic everyday. I just have to wake up same time and go to work same time. hehe...don't care much whether i'm late or not. Sometimes the traffic is smooth and sometimes the traffic is bad. It's just crazy. Today work is alright too. It's manageable. After work I went to eat "lok lok" with my colleagues. It was the first time standing by the road while enjoying "lok lok" but it can be quite pricy. I only had 5 sticks and cost me RM6.
I will be going to Kijal this weekend with a bunch of friends. Looking forward to a relaxing trip. Not going to think about anything but just relax.....thinking about the coconut trees by the beach and listening to the sea breeze.
Fon
Saturday, April 26, 2008
Drive ?
It has been a slow week. I feel so unproductive at work lately. Yes, I admit that not many clients disturb me recently and most of my portfolios are all under controlled. That's why I've been quite "free" lately and i have been doing a lot of reading so just to keep myself occupied and updated about things happening around me.
Yesterday, I spent my night at Bangsar. It used to be a happening place but nowadays it is not anymore since there are so many pubs and restaurants opened in Klang Valley. The young people tend to look for new excitement at new hang out spots. It was an ad hoc thing when ming yenn told me that she has no plans for dinner. So we planned to have dinner and asked Jeff to join us. Since I had appointment with June to meet her at Social with her friends. So we headed to bangsar for dinner. I fetched Jeff from Subang since I went home to change after work. When we reached bangsar, it was about 8:45pm. I was lucky to get a parking nearby The Social.
Jeff decided to have steak so we headed to outback steakhouse for dinner after meeting up with ming yeen at bangsar village. He ordered his sirloin steak and I had seafood. Ming yenn had salad and soup. It was a good meal overall and we also enjoyed 20% discount for HSBC credit card. We also chatted a lot - basically we just updated ourselves and some thoughts that striked us on what we want to do. Ming yenn and I do have the thoughts to work overseas. Frankly speaking, I'm with my current company for 3 years 2 months now. well, it's really a comfort zone. nothing i can ask for when i have great bosses and management is treating us well. but there's something in me that tells me i have to try to move on since i can still do it. Sometimes, i think that my job is so routined and no longer have any challenges. Actually there are challenges but i can't seem to see it. Do i really need a change of environment? i think i need it....sigh....so many happened in the span of 4 months.....my job....my love life....my family and everything !!! I know there are opportunities out there and have yet to see it coming. It's quite depressing when i keep thinking about it. Quarter life crisis ?
Since ming yenn needs to fetch TAC last night so we left outback about 11:15pm. I headed to The Social to meet up with June and friends. It was crowded as usual but all of us didn't seem to have mood. We didn't talk much but just sat and enjoyed the drinks and songs. June's guy friend cracked some jokes and had a good laugh though. After that, Lilian's friend messaged her so we went over to TSB to say hi. Well, i was not very keen since i was getting sleepy. Since all of us are girls so i tagged to accompany them. Lilian's friend is a foreigner, Matt and he was with two other friends chilling with JD and coke. I think we were there for about 15 mins before we headed home. I wasn't feeling comfortable as they are strangers to me and somehow they gave me the impression that they are just looking for excitement in girls.
When I reached home, it was about 2:30 am. Finally when i hit the bed, it was 3:30am ! what a night and i did drop a msg to a friend but only the next day he replied that he remembered reading my sms but he could not find it anymore. Sigh....I'm speechless.
Fon
Yesterday, I spent my night at Bangsar. It used to be a happening place but nowadays it is not anymore since there are so many pubs and restaurants opened in Klang Valley. The young people tend to look for new excitement at new hang out spots. It was an ad hoc thing when ming yenn told me that she has no plans for dinner. So we planned to have dinner and asked Jeff to join us. Since I had appointment with June to meet her at Social with her friends. So we headed to bangsar for dinner. I fetched Jeff from Subang since I went home to change after work. When we reached bangsar, it was about 8:45pm. I was lucky to get a parking nearby The Social.
Jeff decided to have steak so we headed to outback steakhouse for dinner after meeting up with ming yeen at bangsar village. He ordered his sirloin steak and I had seafood. Ming yenn had salad and soup. It was a good meal overall and we also enjoyed 20% discount for HSBC credit card. We also chatted a lot - basically we just updated ourselves and some thoughts that striked us on what we want to do. Ming yenn and I do have the thoughts to work overseas. Frankly speaking, I'm with my current company for 3 years 2 months now. well, it's really a comfort zone. nothing i can ask for when i have great bosses and management is treating us well. but there's something in me that tells me i have to try to move on since i can still do it. Sometimes, i think that my job is so routined and no longer have any challenges. Actually there are challenges but i can't seem to see it. Do i really need a change of environment? i think i need it....sigh....so many happened in the span of 4 months.....my job....my love life....my family and everything !!! I know there are opportunities out there and have yet to see it coming. It's quite depressing when i keep thinking about it. Quarter life crisis ?
Since ming yenn needs to fetch TAC last night so we left outback about 11:15pm. I headed to The Social to meet up with June and friends. It was crowded as usual but all of us didn't seem to have mood. We didn't talk much but just sat and enjoyed the drinks and songs. June's guy friend cracked some jokes and had a good laugh though. After that, Lilian's friend messaged her so we went over to TSB to say hi. Well, i was not very keen since i was getting sleepy. Since all of us are girls so i tagged to accompany them. Lilian's friend is a foreigner, Matt and he was with two other friends chilling with JD and coke. I think we were there for about 15 mins before we headed home. I wasn't feeling comfortable as they are strangers to me and somehow they gave me the impression that they are just looking for excitement in girls.
When I reached home, it was about 2:30 am. Finally when i hit the bed, it was 3:30am ! what a night and i did drop a msg to a friend but only the next day he replied that he remembered reading my sms but he could not find it anymore. Sigh....I'm speechless.
Fon
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Motivation
Today, the whole GES team plus my team celebrated VC's birthday. She is a Senior Tax Manager in my company and has served for more than 8 years. She also has tendered her resignation recently and her last day is next Wed. It's sad to see her go as she is one of the most dedicated staff and i admire her passion towards her job. Since I love taking photos, i became the photographer of the day during the party and i managed to borrow the digicam from my company to snap all the precious moments. my own boss called me a "Photogh" - a term used in channel E news on celebrities. haha. my boss is so sanguine !
The whole party went well and managed to surprise VC. We also got her a cake from Q Jelly (recent trend - cake made of jelly). Most of all, thanks to MV who put in the efforts to organize the party although the GES team is in peak period - 8 more days to file all the tax returns (due by April 30th). She also ordered some light snacks - po piah, sardine rolls, curry puffs and "Hung Kai Tan" (red hard boiled eggs - in chinese culture, chinese family will make hard boiled eggs and dye the egg shell in red during birthday as part of prosperity). Weina ordered the tea lady to make us coffee. After the cake cutting and feasting, Weina gave some motivational speech to the whole team basically to motivate them and thank them for their hard work to meet the April 30th filing deadlines. I have gone through the tax filing once and i truly understand their feelings. Usually, many of them will sigh and even complaint that they will quit after filing as you will have to work around the clock for 1 - 2 months to rush out the tax comps for clients. You must be thinking it's such a crap job that you work almost 24 hours a day for 1 - 2 months and still get the same pay each month. But please think about it, individual tax filing period only happen once a year (feb to april). The rest of the months basically you can go home at working normal hours. Management does see and appreciate the hard work and ultimately the hard work will be paid off.
My boss, June also raised out certain motivational points which is purely based on her experience in my company. She is so right to say that don't ever expect the managers or senior level directors to motivate us at work. At the end of the day, it's all from your own selves. basically, we must understand what exactly we want in life and never depends on others to keep us going. June is able to stay with the firm till today as she is so positive with her life and never ever think negatively about the work and the outcome. This is how she motivates herself to work everyday. There are always ups and downs at work but as long as you know how to control yourself and know exactly what you are doing, things aren't bad afterall. Always look at the bright side - motto of the day :D
I'm going to bed early today :).
Fon
The whole party went well and managed to surprise VC. We also got her a cake from Q Jelly (recent trend - cake made of jelly). Most of all, thanks to MV who put in the efforts to organize the party although the GES team is in peak period - 8 more days to file all the tax returns (due by April 30th). She also ordered some light snacks - po piah, sardine rolls, curry puffs and "Hung Kai Tan" (red hard boiled eggs - in chinese culture, chinese family will make hard boiled eggs and dye the egg shell in red during birthday as part of prosperity). Weina ordered the tea lady to make us coffee. After the cake cutting and feasting, Weina gave some motivational speech to the whole team basically to motivate them and thank them for their hard work to meet the April 30th filing deadlines. I have gone through the tax filing once and i truly understand their feelings. Usually, many of them will sigh and even complaint that they will quit after filing as you will have to work around the clock for 1 - 2 months to rush out the tax comps for clients. You must be thinking it's such a crap job that you work almost 24 hours a day for 1 - 2 months and still get the same pay each month. But please think about it, individual tax filing period only happen once a year (feb to april). The rest of the months basically you can go home at working normal hours. Management does see and appreciate the hard work and ultimately the hard work will be paid off.
My boss, June also raised out certain motivational points which is purely based on her experience in my company. She is so right to say that don't ever expect the managers or senior level directors to motivate us at work. At the end of the day, it's all from your own selves. basically, we must understand what exactly we want in life and never depends on others to keep us going. June is able to stay with the firm till today as she is so positive with her life and never ever think negatively about the work and the outcome. This is how she motivates herself to work everyday. There are always ups and downs at work but as long as you know how to control yourself and know exactly what you are doing, things aren't bad afterall. Always look at the bright side - motto of the day :D
I'm going to bed early today :).
Fon
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
Over You
I'm waiting for this day to come....
Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.
Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.
You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.
Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.
Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I'm putting my heart back together,
'Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.
Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.
Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.
You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.
Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.
Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I'm putting my heart back together,
'Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.
Monday, April 21, 2008
Monday blues....
I'm having monday blues as usual and I'm wearing blue top today....hahah...seriously I just want to tell the whole world that i'm having monday blues.....feel so sleepy the whole day but managed to attend to all my emails from clients.
It was raining when i came out from my office building. Luckily when i reach home, there is no rain at all. Yesterday, I went for an hour full body massage. The masseur concentrated on my shoulder and neck particularly as it was so stiff. I can feel the pain when she pressed on certain points. Nevertheless, it was great ! at least i feel much better now. the soothing music played at Chakras just made want to fall asleep.
After massage, i headed to the curve and i was thinking to buy the HP pouch for my friend, Joane. When i was about to buy, the rain poured heavily. :( I have no choice but to head to ikea to check out some lamps. I intended to buy one for my room as it's seriously very uncool to have only the fluorescent light. Basically, my whole house used only fluorescent lights as it was my dad's idea. He is quite conservative and dislike dim lights. As usual, ikea was so crowded plus the rain. everyone just stayed in to wait for the rain to stop. i managed to buy a lamp. It's a small pink lamp with flower designs. I love it so much ! now my room so much better at night.
BG brought me to Damansara Jaya to have dinner yesterday night. We had claypot rice and it was delicious. We also ordered soup and vege. Overall, it was a nice dinner. However, it was a quiet dinner although the ppl around are making so much noise. I hate the most was that BG doesn't really talk to me which i don't understand why. am i that hateful or just bored? Am hoping BG can treat me just like his other friends one day. He is certainly like a chatter box since i have known him for almost 4 years. I suspect something is bothering him and in fact he has changed to someone i barely know. I'm praying everyday to God and hope God may touch his heart one day and make him realize that there are many people around do care a lot about him especially me and hoping that he knows how to treasure them whenever he could. Sometimes, I'm so pissed that I just want to walk away from BG's life but something is holding me back again and again. Please tell me why......oh please....am i not deserve being a good friend to BG? I just hate this feeling and sometimes i rather just died than to feel miserable and helpless.
Okies...time to go shower ! Hopefully i can feel better after this.
Fon
It was raining when i came out from my office building. Luckily when i reach home, there is no rain at all. Yesterday, I went for an hour full body massage. The masseur concentrated on my shoulder and neck particularly as it was so stiff. I can feel the pain when she pressed on certain points. Nevertheless, it was great ! at least i feel much better now. the soothing music played at Chakras just made want to fall asleep.
After massage, i headed to the curve and i was thinking to buy the HP pouch for my friend, Joane. When i was about to buy, the rain poured heavily. :( I have no choice but to head to ikea to check out some lamps. I intended to buy one for my room as it's seriously very uncool to have only the fluorescent light. Basically, my whole house used only fluorescent lights as it was my dad's idea. He is quite conservative and dislike dim lights. As usual, ikea was so crowded plus the rain. everyone just stayed in to wait for the rain to stop. i managed to buy a lamp. It's a small pink lamp with flower designs. I love it so much ! now my room so much better at night.
BG brought me to Damansara Jaya to have dinner yesterday night. We had claypot rice and it was delicious. We also ordered soup and vege. Overall, it was a nice dinner. However, it was a quiet dinner although the ppl around are making so much noise. I hate the most was that BG doesn't really talk to me which i don't understand why. am i that hateful or just bored? Am hoping BG can treat me just like his other friends one day. He is certainly like a chatter box since i have known him for almost 4 years. I suspect something is bothering him and in fact he has changed to someone i barely know. I'm praying everyday to God and hope God may touch his heart one day and make him realize that there are many people around do care a lot about him especially me and hoping that he knows how to treasure them whenever he could. Sometimes, I'm so pissed that I just want to walk away from BG's life but something is holding me back again and again. Please tell me why......oh please....am i not deserve being a good friend to BG? I just hate this feeling and sometimes i rather just died than to feel miserable and helpless.
Okies...time to go shower ! Hopefully i can feel better after this.
Fon
Sunday, April 20, 2008
Love Song
This song currently tells how i feel now....
Head underwater
And they tell me
To breathe easy for a while
Breathing gets harder, even I know that
Made room for me; but it's too soon to see
If I'm happy in your hands
I'm unusually hard to hold on to
Blank stares at blank pages
No easy way to say this
You mean well, but you make this hard on me
I'm not gonna write you a love song
'cause you asked for it 'cause you need one, you see
I'm not gonna write you a love song
'cause you tell me it's
Make or break in this
If you're on your way
I'm not gonna write you to stay
If all you have is leavin',
Imma need a better reason
To write you a love song today (today)
I learned the hard way
That they all say
Things you want to hear
And my heavy heart sinks deep down under you and
Your twisted words,
Your help just hurts
You are not what I thought you were
Hello to high and dry
Convinced me to please you
Made me think that I need this too
I'm trying to let you hear me as I am
I'm not gonna write you a love song
'cause you asked for it
'cause you need one, you see
I'm not gonna write you a love song
'cause you tell me it's
Make or break in this
If you're on your way
I'm not gonna write you to stay
If all you have is leavin',
Imma need a better reason
To write you a love song today
Promise me that you'll leave the light on
To help me see with daylight, my guide, gone
'cause I believe there's a way you can love me
Because I say I won't write you a love song
'cause you asked for it
'cause you need one, you see
I'm not gonna write you a love song
'cause you tell me it's make or break in this
Is that why you wanted a love song
'cause you asked for it
'cause you need one, you see
I'm not gonna write you a love song
'cause you tell me it's make or break in this
If you're on your way
I'm not gonna write you to stay
If your heart is nowhere in it
I don't want it for a minute Babe,
I'll walk the seven seas when I believe that
There's a reason to
Write you a love song today
Head underwater
And they tell me
To breathe easy for a while
Breathing gets harder, even I know that
Made room for me; but it's too soon to see
If I'm happy in your hands
I'm unusually hard to hold on to
Blank stares at blank pages
No easy way to say this
You mean well, but you make this hard on me
I'm not gonna write you a love song
'cause you asked for it 'cause you need one, you see
I'm not gonna write you a love song
'cause you tell me it's
Make or break in this
If you're on your way
I'm not gonna write you to stay
If all you have is leavin',
Imma need a better reason
To write you a love song today (today)
I learned the hard way
That they all say
Things you want to hear
And my heavy heart sinks deep down under you and
Your twisted words,
Your help just hurts
You are not what I thought you were
Hello to high and dry
Convinced me to please you
Made me think that I need this too
I'm trying to let you hear me as I am
I'm not gonna write you a love song
'cause you asked for it
'cause you need one, you see
I'm not gonna write you a love song
'cause you tell me it's
Make or break in this
If you're on your way
I'm not gonna write you to stay
If all you have is leavin',
Imma need a better reason
To write you a love song today
Promise me that you'll leave the light on
To help me see with daylight, my guide, gone
'cause I believe there's a way you can love me
Because I say I won't write you a love song
'cause you asked for it
'cause you need one, you see
I'm not gonna write you a love song
'cause you tell me it's make or break in this
Is that why you wanted a love song
'cause you asked for it
'cause you need one, you see
I'm not gonna write you a love song
'cause you tell me it's make or break in this
If you're on your way
I'm not gonna write you to stay
If your heart is nowhere in it
I don't want it for a minute Babe,
I'll walk the seven seas when I believe that
There's a reason to
Write you a love song today
Saturday, April 19, 2008
The Social
I have out till quite late for the past two days. On Thursday, I had a meeting at Menara TM in the afternoon. My boss and I thought the meeting would probably takes an hour or less. Somehow it ended for 2.5 hours....sigh...longest meeting ever which is good that my client brought up so many issues which we will have to bring up to our global office to resolve. We left our client's office at about 6:35pm. It was raining heavily earlier so my boss parked her car at the building basement. She had to park at the illegal spot as the whole car was so packed. As usual, we went to pay the parking ticket at the autopay station. Unfortunately, the machine was out of order but it ate the parking ticket and not the notes. We were trying to retrieve the ticket but failed. I was hitting the machine so hard to retrieve it but still failed. We were lucky enough that a gentlemen who worked in the same bulding came to help us out. He informed us that the autopay machine has been spoilt and we must pay at the exit counter. We did not know what he had done to retrieve the parking ticket but he managed to retrieve it.
We were so relieved and walked off after we thanked him. However, he was so sweet to give us his staff id so we can get special rate for parking. We were as usual felt so impressed for his kindness. He even led us my boss's car and instructed us where to exit. Such a sweet gentlemen ! There aren't many these days. We finally got out from Menara TM about 7pm. When i looked at my watch, we were running late to attend another event at 1 Sentral where Ching Yen was there waiting for me to accompany her since she was all alone. Actually, Ching Yen invited me to join her at the Regus 3rd office launch as she was invited by the GM who is Ching Yen's business contact. I dragged my boss along to attend as we foresee that we may seek business opportunities since Regus provides business centres, meeting rooms, office suites and virtual office facilities to both local and foreign clients. Networking has been something i always wanted to do and I felt good to be able to attend.
We were kind of lost of direction from Menara TM to 1 Sentral. After a few wrong turns, we made it there at around 7:30pm. When we got up to Level 16 where Regus is, the guests were about to propose a toast after the speech. Initially, we thought it was a small launch but somehow the crowd was quite good with mix locals and foreigners. We were served wines and cocktails as well as a buffet dinner. A DJ and a jazz singer were invited to entertain us. After my boss and I met up with Ching Yen. We had a short tour around the office. It is indeed a cool place. It is definitely a place where i can recommend my foreign clients who intend to set up offices in Malaysia - cosy office environment and with latest technologies. We tried to mingle around and exchanged some name cards. I also bumped into my client who also has a lease with Regus in KLCC.
We were there for about half an hour as Ching Yen and I had to meet our ex uni mates at The Gardens, Mid Valley. At the same time, my boss had to leave for another dinner date with her friend. I wished we could stay longer to mingle more. Ching Yen and I headed to The Gardens to meet up with our ex uni mates at Sushi Zanmai. It was a great place - one of the nicest sushi place ever. Apparently, I have not been to a sushi place as I don't really fancy sushi. Somehow this place caught my attention and i fell in love with it since then. There were about 8 of us and we ordered sushi, sashimi, gyoza, etc. Total bill came about RM250 but it was a satisfying dinner ever with lots of laughters. When we were heading home, we already talk about our next plan to meet for such a dinner again as it is indeed fun.
Yesterday night was a crazy night, my colleagues and I went to Social, Bangsar to have dinner as part of the celebration for our promotions last month. My Partner and her hubby joined us too. It was my first time trying out the food at Social as the last time I went there was for drinks. The food was amazing - it's fusion (western and local with a mixture of taste from Thai). We also ordered beers and wine to chill. My boss's fav DJ came about 10 plus and played quite a number great songs. It's a recommended place to hang out really. Apart from food, Social has a bar and pool table. The place is forever so crowded. Almost midnight, most of colleagues left already. My boss has another group of friends at Social as they were celebrating birthday for another friend. It was friday night and i do not want to go home so early so i joined in the party. We hang out till 2am which is also the time Social closes.
I was pretty tired when i got home but still have to remove my make up and shower. When i hit the bed, it was about 4am with a few smses came in from someone i cared about a lot. I wonder whether it's a hint that he misses me or i'm just being over sensitive. Whatever ! Managed to catch some sleep but i got up at about 9:30 am to head for facial and spa. I think it's the best when we just love ourselves the most rather than thinking about others.
We were so relieved and walked off after we thanked him. However, he was so sweet to give us his staff id so we can get special rate for parking. We were as usual felt so impressed for his kindness. He even led us my boss's car and instructed us where to exit. Such a sweet gentlemen ! There aren't many these days. We finally got out from Menara TM about 7pm. When i looked at my watch, we were running late to attend another event at 1 Sentral where Ching Yen was there waiting for me to accompany her since she was all alone. Actually, Ching Yen invited me to join her at the Regus 3rd office launch as she was invited by the GM who is Ching Yen's business contact. I dragged my boss along to attend as we foresee that we may seek business opportunities since Regus provides business centres, meeting rooms, office suites and virtual office facilities to both local and foreign clients. Networking has been something i always wanted to do and I felt good to be able to attend.
We were kind of lost of direction from Menara TM to 1 Sentral. After a few wrong turns, we made it there at around 7:30pm. When we got up to Level 16 where Regus is, the guests were about to propose a toast after the speech. Initially, we thought it was a small launch but somehow the crowd was quite good with mix locals and foreigners. We were served wines and cocktails as well as a buffet dinner. A DJ and a jazz singer were invited to entertain us. After my boss and I met up with Ching Yen. We had a short tour around the office. It is indeed a cool place. It is definitely a place where i can recommend my foreign clients who intend to set up offices in Malaysia - cosy office environment and with latest technologies. We tried to mingle around and exchanged some name cards. I also bumped into my client who also has a lease with Regus in KLCC.
We were there for about half an hour as Ching Yen and I had to meet our ex uni mates at The Gardens, Mid Valley. At the same time, my boss had to leave for another dinner date with her friend. I wished we could stay longer to mingle more. Ching Yen and I headed to The Gardens to meet up with our ex uni mates at Sushi Zanmai. It was a great place - one of the nicest sushi place ever. Apparently, I have not been to a sushi place as I don't really fancy sushi. Somehow this place caught my attention and i fell in love with it since then. There were about 8 of us and we ordered sushi, sashimi, gyoza, etc. Total bill came about RM250 but it was a satisfying dinner ever with lots of laughters. When we were heading home, we already talk about our next plan to meet for such a dinner again as it is indeed fun.
Yesterday night was a crazy night, my colleagues and I went to Social, Bangsar to have dinner as part of the celebration for our promotions last month. My Partner and her hubby joined us too. It was my first time trying out the food at Social as the last time I went there was for drinks. The food was amazing - it's fusion (western and local with a mixture of taste from Thai). We also ordered beers and wine to chill. My boss's fav DJ came about 10 plus and played quite a number great songs. It's a recommended place to hang out really. Apart from food, Social has a bar and pool table. The place is forever so crowded. Almost midnight, most of colleagues left already. My boss has another group of friends at Social as they were celebrating birthday for another friend. It was friday night and i do not want to go home so early so i joined in the party. We hang out till 2am which is also the time Social closes.
I was pretty tired when i got home but still have to remove my make up and shower. When i hit the bed, it was about 4am with a few smses came in from someone i cared about a lot. I wonder whether it's a hint that he misses me or i'm just being over sensitive. Whatever ! Managed to catch some sleep but i got up at about 9:30 am to head for facial and spa. I think it's the best when we just love ourselves the most rather than thinking about others.
Fon
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
Regrets ?
Today's blog is dedicated to my friend, Helena and her family. Helena's dad passed away peacefully yesterday morning (15 Apr 2008). I went to pay my last respect to her dad at her home just now. The wake was held since yesterday and the actual funeral will be held this Sunday. I'm not very close to Helena and family but I knew Helena since uni days. Because of her I got to know my close buddy, Ming Yenn. Helena is also Ming Yenn's sister in law. Ming Yenn does talk about Helena and her family a lot and I was also invited to their wedding about 2 years back. That was my first time and last time saw Helena's dad. Though we aren't close but I could feel the warmth in their family. The whole family gives me the impression that they are so close and united and the love among them is remarkable. I truly respect them as they have set great examples to many out there that family is above everything else.
Yes, i admit that i have not been very close to family members. Among all my siblings, I'm also an attention seeker as I always thought i'm not important in the family and feel neglected. Frankly speaking I'm not. It's because i have been very independent and never create any problems or troubles for my parents to worry about me. It's because they have so much faith in me and indirectly give me less attention compared to my other 3 siblings but that doesn't mean they don't love me. I hate my rebel ! I realise that if i don't stop rebelling, i will definitely regret one day as my parents are getting old and may not have many more years to be around.....sigh....i seriously hate myself for this. Mum and Dad, I promise you all that I will be good from now on. Though i never express it out but in my heart, I do care a lot about you both ! In my everyday's prayers, I pray that both of you will live forever and ever to see us become the persons you all want us to be.
I miss Angelina, my white teddy bear! Where are you? I have not seen you since last Sunday night. I know you are safe and sound but I hope one day you will come back home. In the meantime, please do take care of yourself. Always remember that mummy loves you OK ? muaks.
Fon
Yes, i admit that i have not been very close to family members. Among all my siblings, I'm also an attention seeker as I always thought i'm not important in the family and feel neglected. Frankly speaking I'm not. It's because i have been very independent and never create any problems or troubles for my parents to worry about me. It's because they have so much faith in me and indirectly give me less attention compared to my other 3 siblings but that doesn't mean they don't love me. I hate my rebel ! I realise that if i don't stop rebelling, i will definitely regret one day as my parents are getting old and may not have many more years to be around.....sigh....i seriously hate myself for this. Mum and Dad, I promise you all that I will be good from now on. Though i never express it out but in my heart, I do care a lot about you both ! In my everyday's prayers, I pray that both of you will live forever and ever to see us become the persons you all want us to be.
I miss Angelina, my white teddy bear! Where are you? I have not seen you since last Sunday night. I know you are safe and sound but I hope one day you will come back home. In the meantime, please do take care of yourself. Always remember that mummy loves you OK ? muaks.
Fon
Monday, April 14, 2008
Definitely Maybe
Just got back from work and was supposed to have few beers with Michelle and Eunice opposite our office but somehow Michelle was needed to review some comps. Eunice and I just had our dinner and left shortly. As usual feel refreshing now after shower.
I went for a movie with friends last night at Cineleisure (the cinema I like the most so far with comfy seats and nice ambience). "Definitely Maybe" was certainly a feel good movie. I loved the characters and the story line. It's about a guy who went through 3 relationships with 3 women. His love journey was quite a disaster and wasted at least 6 to 8 years before he finally found someone whom he really want to spend his life with by the help of his own daughter (a 7 year old girl who is so mature and understanding). The movie made me realize that sometimes God just has plans for us and makes us go through a bit more of disaster before we finally realize the best things are actually right in front of us. The guy in the movie has been in love with his best friend (a girl) but their paths never crossed after many years later.......It also makes me realize love can't be forced...especially we can't force someone to love you although you believe so hard that it will work. It's best that we let it comes to us when the time is right and it takes two hands to clap ! Definitely maybe, betterment in life will eventually come when I least expect it.
It's Monday and I'm looking forward to weekend.....haha....feel lazy these days. I just want to lie down on my couch and watch my favourite movies. I will be going for a good one hour massage to destress myself (as though I'm that stressed !). I'm also looking forward to Friday night as my colleagues and I will be having a group dinner at Social, Bangsar as part of our celebration for promotions and increment last month. I've been there once but not for the food. Can't wait for the day :)
Well well....traffic these days is horrible. I think I shall sleep early and drag myself to leave my house earlier than usual else I will late again. It's so not nice to have the thought that the lateness will affect my bonus payout. I do not want this happen as it's not worth for the hard work i have contributed to my company so far. I definitely deserve more than that...don't you think so?
Nites everyone !
Fon
I went for a movie with friends last night at Cineleisure (the cinema I like the most so far with comfy seats and nice ambience). "Definitely Maybe" was certainly a feel good movie. I loved the characters and the story line. It's about a guy who went through 3 relationships with 3 women. His love journey was quite a disaster and wasted at least 6 to 8 years before he finally found someone whom he really want to spend his life with by the help of his own daughter (a 7 year old girl who is so mature and understanding). The movie made me realize that sometimes God just has plans for us and makes us go through a bit more of disaster before we finally realize the best things are actually right in front of us. The guy in the movie has been in love with his best friend (a girl) but their paths never crossed after many years later.......It also makes me realize love can't be forced...especially we can't force someone to love you although you believe so hard that it will work. It's best that we let it comes to us when the time is right and it takes two hands to clap ! Definitely maybe, betterment in life will eventually come when I least expect it.
It's Monday and I'm looking forward to weekend.....haha....feel lazy these days. I just want to lie down on my couch and watch my favourite movies. I will be going for a good one hour massage to destress myself (as though I'm that stressed !). I'm also looking forward to Friday night as my colleagues and I will be having a group dinner at Social, Bangsar as part of our celebration for promotions and increment last month. I've been there once but not for the food. Can't wait for the day :)
Well well....traffic these days is horrible. I think I shall sleep early and drag myself to leave my house earlier than usual else I will late again. It's so not nice to have the thought that the lateness will affect my bonus payout. I do not want this happen as it's not worth for the hard work i have contributed to my company so far. I definitely deserve more than that...don't you think so?
Nites everyone !
Fon
Saturday, April 12, 2008
It's Saturday.
It's saturday and as usual no plans today. I spent my lunch with Mel at Noodles Village since I had to pass her the souvenir i bought from Ho Chi Minh City. Basically, we were enjoying delicious Pan Mee with steamed crystal dumplings...yummy....It was Mel's first time there. Well, I have brought a few friends and my family members to try the Pan Mee there and they liked it. While enjoying our food, we had a great chat too.
The weather changed suddenly when we left the place. It began to rain shortly after that. After dropped Mel off, I headed to my yoga centre to attend my hot yoga class. It always feels so relieved after the class as I sweat all the toxins out from my body. When I stepped out from yoga centre, the rain has stopped so I headed home to shower and do laundry.
Around 7 plus, I went dinner with my second sis and bro. All of us were so hungry and finished up all the food we ordered. As usual, I can't stop from myself to go over my eldest sis's house to play with my 8 months old niece, Jovena. She is everyone's darling :). She has a walker with her today and was very excited with her new gadget. Whenever I see her, I just can't stop to pinch her and kiss her. My heart just melted whenever i see her smiling. such an adorable angel !
I am having mixed feelings again. Not sure how to describe but somehow my heart tells me that I have something that I still hold on to and unwilling to let it go. Frankly speaking, I'm still holding on to it and wondering when i will let it go completely......sigh......Mariah's new album is absolutely superb! Hope she could be my new inspiration to see things at a different perspective and don't ever look back but keep moving forward for a better life.
Fon
The weather changed suddenly when we left the place. It began to rain shortly after that. After dropped Mel off, I headed to my yoga centre to attend my hot yoga class. It always feels so relieved after the class as I sweat all the toxins out from my body. When I stepped out from yoga centre, the rain has stopped so I headed home to shower and do laundry.
Around 7 plus, I went dinner with my second sis and bro. All of us were so hungry and finished up all the food we ordered. As usual, I can't stop from myself to go over my eldest sis's house to play with my 8 months old niece, Jovena. She is everyone's darling :). She has a walker with her today and was very excited with her new gadget. Whenever I see her, I just can't stop to pinch her and kiss her. My heart just melted whenever i see her smiling. such an adorable angel !
I am having mixed feelings again. Not sure how to describe but somehow my heart tells me that I have something that I still hold on to and unwilling to let it go. Frankly speaking, I'm still holding on to it and wondering when i will let it go completely......sigh......Mariah's new album is absolutely superb! Hope she could be my new inspiration to see things at a different perspective and don't ever look back but keep moving forward for a better life.
Fon
Friday, April 11, 2008
You are always my No. 2
After 2 days training and I went back to office today. As usual, my mailbox was full of emails and managed to clear at least 3 quarter of it. Luckily today not many clients "disturb" me so i could concentrate on clearing my emails - basically replying clients' queries and reading work updates. Also, I had some time to share my training course material with my Manager and my Partner apparently want me to have 1 - 2 sharing sessions of what I have learnt during the 2 days training.
I would say that the training was knowledgeable but not 100% applicable to my work. However, it helps me understand more in terms of HRM and may prepare myself to provide quality advisory to clients in future. During the training, I was trying to brush up my networking skills and somehow i could get the hang of it now. Initially, i used to be quite shy to initiate a conversation but the more you do it, it flows naturally and can feel myself getting better and better. Well, perhaps i won't consider myself able to convince another party re our services but being able to initiate a conversation and making myself comfortable to talk to people I first met is already an achievement. I think :p.
Well, I used to be able to share my daily thoughts and conversation with a friend whom i care about a lot. Somehow things didn't work out as it used to be so I'm sharing it all by myself once again and also with my soft toys whom i hug every night on my bed. Though they can't response to what i'm telling them but i can feel that they are listening (I know deep down in my heart that you all are listening).
How do you feel when someone tells you that you are just his/her no.2 ? I'm sure everyone out there wants to be no.1 in everything. No doubt myself - I always want to be no.1 in everything i do. somehow part of me can't take the risk. For example, when comes to compete in a competition, i always have the feeling that i will lose. As such, i ended up perform badly. Being able to build up a strong confidence in everything you do is a courage. I seriously admire people like that. But me, sigh....i just don't see myself to be no.1 in everything i do. Guess....with that I shall conclude that I can only be no.2 !
Fon
I would say that the training was knowledgeable but not 100% applicable to my work. However, it helps me understand more in terms of HRM and may prepare myself to provide quality advisory to clients in future. During the training, I was trying to brush up my networking skills and somehow i could get the hang of it now. Initially, i used to be quite shy to initiate a conversation but the more you do it, it flows naturally and can feel myself getting better and better. Well, perhaps i won't consider myself able to convince another party re our services but being able to initiate a conversation and making myself comfortable to talk to people I first met is already an achievement. I think :p.
Well, I used to be able to share my daily thoughts and conversation with a friend whom i care about a lot. Somehow things didn't work out as it used to be so I'm sharing it all by myself once again and also with my soft toys whom i hug every night on my bed. Though they can't response to what i'm telling them but i can feel that they are listening (I know deep down in my heart that you all are listening).
How do you feel when someone tells you that you are just his/her no.2 ? I'm sure everyone out there wants to be no.1 in everything. No doubt myself - I always want to be no.1 in everything i do. somehow part of me can't take the risk. For example, when comes to compete in a competition, i always have the feeling that i will lose. As such, i ended up perform badly. Being able to build up a strong confidence in everything you do is a courage. I seriously admire people like that. But me, sigh....i just don't see myself to be no.1 in everything i do. Guess....with that I shall conclude that I can only be no.2 !
Fon
Thursday, April 10, 2008
Inspiring
Ok..lets start with current news! Just finished watching Idol Gives Back. It inspired me a lot as I know it touches everyone's lives. The songs are great with all the big stars like Brad Pitt, Mariah Carey, Bono, Carrie Underwood, Daughtry, the 8 remaining idols and etc...truly inspiring!
The show broadcasts the journey of the big stars going around rural areas and places in US and Africa - the poor kids with no books to read, no education, no home, HIV victims, hurricane katrina's victims etc. There are millions are kids out there are calling our help to light up their lives as they are currently living in the dark. I may look helpless but it allows me to see things in a different perspectives. i always thought that i'm not lucky enough to have what i have. Nothing seems to be enough for me. i always want more and more......frankly speaking i'm just too pampered. By looking at the poor kids out there is enough for me to realise how wonderful my life is, at least i have a bed to sleep on and have a house to step in for shelter and food. my life isn't bad afterall compared to others who barely have enough to survive. How i wish i can go out there and touch their lives. Like Brad Pitt says, we must step out from our comfort zone to feel and experience the lives out there.
The part where Daughtry went to Uganda, Africa and sang one of his singles, "What About Now?" to Ugandians was very unforgettable. Here you go....
Shadows fill an empty heart
As love is fading,
From all the things that we are
But are not saying.
Can we see beyond the scars
And make it to the dawn?
Change the colors of the sky.
And open up to
The ways you made me feel alive,
The ways I loved you.
For all the things that never died,
To make it through the night,
Love will find you.
What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?
The sun is breaking in your eyes
To start a new day.
This broken heart can still survive
With a touch of your grace.
Shadows fade into the light.
I am by your side,
Where love will find you.
What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love, it never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?
Now that we're here,
Now that we've come this far,
Just hold on.
There is nothing to fear,
For I am right beside you.
For all my life,
I am yours.
What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?
It's never too late to start thinking what you should do to make things right for yourself and your loved ones. The show just gave a wake up call to people out there to treasure what is around them and live life to the fullest. Be humble and reach out for others if possible.
The forever gorgeous Mariah Carey (my number one idol) sparked the show with Fly like a bird - It's amazing to hear her sing to the world. The remaining 8 idols ended the show by dressing in white and sang "Shout to the Lord". A big applause to them !! Stay united and light the world :)
Fon
The show broadcasts the journey of the big stars going around rural areas and places in US and Africa - the poor kids with no books to read, no education, no home, HIV victims, hurricane katrina's victims etc. There are millions are kids out there are calling our help to light up their lives as they are currently living in the dark. I may look helpless but it allows me to see things in a different perspectives. i always thought that i'm not lucky enough to have what i have. Nothing seems to be enough for me. i always want more and more......frankly speaking i'm just too pampered. By looking at the poor kids out there is enough for me to realise how wonderful my life is, at least i have a bed to sleep on and have a house to step in for shelter and food. my life isn't bad afterall compared to others who barely have enough to survive. How i wish i can go out there and touch their lives. Like Brad Pitt says, we must step out from our comfort zone to feel and experience the lives out there.
The part where Daughtry went to Uganda, Africa and sang one of his singles, "What About Now?" to Ugandians was very unforgettable. Here you go....
Shadows fill an empty heart
As love is fading,
From all the things that we are
But are not saying.
Can we see beyond the scars
And make it to the dawn?
Change the colors of the sky.
And open up to
The ways you made me feel alive,
The ways I loved you.
For all the things that never died,
To make it through the night,
Love will find you.
What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?
The sun is breaking in your eyes
To start a new day.
This broken heart can still survive
With a touch of your grace.
Shadows fade into the light.
I am by your side,
Where love will find you.
What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love, it never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?
Now that we're here,
Now that we've come this far,
Just hold on.
There is nothing to fear,
For I am right beside you.
For all my life,
I am yours.
What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?
It's never too late to start thinking what you should do to make things right for yourself and your loved ones. The show just gave a wake up call to people out there to treasure what is around them and live life to the fullest. Be humble and reach out for others if possible.
The forever gorgeous Mariah Carey (my number one idol) sparked the show with Fly like a bird - It's amazing to hear her sing to the world. The remaining 8 idols ended the show by dressing in white and sang "Shout to the Lord". A big applause to them !! Stay united and light the world :)
Fon
It has been a while ....
Wow...I do not know how long I have stopped blogging...if im not mistaken, the last time i updated my blog at 20six was when I'm still in uni. Worse still, i can't even remember the name of the blog i've created. Perhaps about 5 - 6 years ago. Sigh...i really can't remember.
It's OK. Let me start all over again. Just want to share out my thoughts and what have happened for the past years. There are just too many things to talk about - life after my graduation, my career, my love life and everything bitter and sweet !!!
Let me see where should i start from....
Fon
It's OK. Let me start all over again. Just want to share out my thoughts and what have happened for the past years. There are just too many things to talk about - life after my graduation, my career, my love life and everything bitter and sweet !!!
Let me see where should i start from....
Fon
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