How could I get a truthful answer ?

Yesterday I finally got myself out from the house. That because Bee asked me to join her for a swim at Shah Alam Aquatic Centre. Unfortunately, it was closed when we reached there but was opened for their own staff. It was so unfair ! Since we were so eager to swim, Bee suggested to check out the club house owned by BNM. Since the club house opened its door couple of weeks ago, Bee only went there once for badminton. We were lucky that the club was opened on daily basis till 10pm. It is new with modern architecture and most importantly it has all the club house facilities i.e. tennis, badminton, squash, swimming pool, spa (I was so surprised!!! so cool), pool room, karaoke etc. There are about 200 ++ rooms available for BNM staff and visitors worldwide esp those who are invited to the bank for seminars, courses and conferences. Too bad i didn't bring my cam along to take pics of that cool place. The club house is obviously opened for BNM staff so i had to pretend i was one of the staff to sneak in. hahha....we were lucky enough to have one of the security guards to bring us around to check out the place. I was amazed really !!

We had a good swim and headed for dinner after we showered. Bee brought me to Paramount Garden for dinner. I was so hungry and in the mood to order all kinds of food. So i ordered a plate of Fried Sotong, Claypot Curry Fish Fillet with Rice and a plate of Hokkien Mee + Mee Hoon to share. Guess what....we finished them all !!!! Gosh, isn't great to be in the mood of eating ? Bee enjoyed herself and she told me that was like the first time for her to eat so much after so long. The food was just so appetizing and you just can't resist. haha. I got home about 10 plus and my bro was helping me to add songs into my ipod since i will be off to Tioman for company trip next weekend. It's going to be a relaxing one as i plan to bring my books to read by the beach while listening to my ipod. So looking forward to it.....

Today afternoon I had a lunch appointment with JN which was long outstanding. We tried the set lunches at San Francisco Steakhouse which was opened at SS17. It wasn't too bad but can be better :p. We had a long chat to catch up with each other lives. Found out more about my ex and he still the same old person. I wonder when will he grow up and start thinking about future. I used to be worried about him so much till I lost myself. Now no longer need to worry anything about him but I wish things will be good for him in future (even though i still hate him for giving up on me that time). Guess I'm just too nice....Good Luck G!

I'm listening to my ipod now and each song that i listen will bring back all the memories - bitter and sweet esp about the person who gave me this ipod. He said he will care for me no matter what. I really wonder whether he still cares ??? He said he is tight down with work but i feel that it's more like avoiding me completely. Yes, it is a right thing to do i.e. to prevent me from planting any more seeds as it may not even grow to be a tree. I really want to tell him that I'm not planting anymore seeds but instead to thank him for making me realise that there are more things for me to explore out there and have the desire to see more. All I hope for is to get a truthful answer from him whether can we still be best friends like how we used to be? If you can't tell me face to face, perhaps tell me in my dreams.

I was reading someone's blog recently who actually asked whether how you know when you are actually in love and how you know that it was not a rebound. Is it that easy to say "I Love You" and mean it ? To me, it is never easy as i know myself very well when i'm really in love with that person. It is a feeling which you just can't describe. Your heart starts beating fast when you are with that person and everything is so mutual as though you have known that person for years. Those who actually read my blog will always advise me to be realistic but sometimes it is just so hard to face reality. Sigh...I shall wait and see when this will happen to me once again or probably it will not even happen in the near future. Love is not important for now but it is something I can't live without.

I noticed something about me recently....hahha....i think I'm putting on weight. Though I can still wear my pants and skirts.....somehow my arms got bigger. Would it be due to badminton and swimming lately ?? hahah....I don't mind to have firmer arms. WTF !!! I'm just healthy and fit.

Fon