2008 is a "break up" year

Sigh...i hate to admit it but 2008 is not a good year for those who are in relationships. Beginning this year i was dumped and from my blog, you can see so many posts on my heartache. Since then every month i will hear break up stories from here and there. Tonight itself, i heard another 3 break up stories. I was trying to help them but yet they know the best what happened exactly. No one can help them except for standing up on their own. I have gone through that so i know how hard it is to go through the pain.

I lied if i said i don't miss him (not my recent ex...he had became my history...i'm happy that he is out of my life). I do miss him a lot and each day i will spend at least 30 seconds to think what he is doing and is he happy with his current life and does he miss me. Although i was hurt in the beginning when i knew he was holding back his feelings, i don't blame him for doing it as i don't own him. In fact, I'm just pissed that he actually thought i had made a wrong impression. He said I have made assumptions that we are "together". I admitted that I jumped into conclusion too fast but i think he should bear some responsibilities that he made me jumped into conclusion due to his actions and words. He somehow managed to convince me that his feelings for me are true and real. When i asked him again recently whether what he meant it seriously of what he had said to me previously. he didn't dare to answer me and all he said that it makes no difference now as he needs to settle his issues first. Well, i respect that. I'm hoping that he will do something right for himself. Yes, deep down inside me i wish we could end up together but as a friend, i hope he will love himself more and at least do the right thing for once for himself. I know it is easy to say than done. But life goes on so never lie to yourself when something isn't right. I hope he also realises what i actually feel deep down inside me too. I want you to be happy so if he also wants me to be happy, please feel for me and support me whatever paths I choose to take.

Fon