Through the rain

My favourite song, Through the rain by Mariah Carey was playing in my ipod while i was on the ferry back from Bintan to Singapore. It was inspirational...hahah...though it was about a girl who has followed her heart to run away with the man she loves although her parents were against their relationship. No matter what against your dreams, as long as you have the heart to do it, you can definitely make it. This is the spirit I'm looking for.....where it is? i wonder...it has not hit me yet. I know i have a lot of things that i want to do but somehow i have not found the drive to keep it moving. i must find it soon to end the misery i'm facing. Like what Mariah's....we can make it through it the rain ! Yes, i will....definitely will !

It's the start of Sept...can't believe Aug just ended like that. I was trying to recall what had happened for the past few weeks but i can't. Everything seemed to be wiped off. I knew I enjoyed my stay at Bintan Island. The resort was fanstatic but the whole trip cost a bomb ! I felt very guilty for choosing that place though I didn't spend a single cent except for the ferry tickets. The whole trip has taught me a lesson too....better don't start enjoying luxury in life if you don't even know how to save and spend accordingly. I had made a promise to myself not to spend for unnecessary until end of this year before the trip. Money is hard to earn and hard to save too due to the economy downturn....sigh !!! So starting this month....no more spending and will stay at home more to pick up more reading. I find that gaining knowledge is something that you can't stop doing...you must do it until the day you breathe out your last breath.

It's time to keep myself back on track...i want a change...i have mention it so many times but nothing has changed so far. It's depressing.....i can say it but no action will not change anything. I better do it before it is too late. My future is determined by myself and no one else gives any answer to it.

Fon