I just got frustrated over MSN lately as it gets harder to connect and sometimes it just gets disconnected several times or the messages were not sent across to another party. Well, guess it is also time for me to getto a new pc or laptop. Due to financial issues, this thought will have to be postponed.
I can't believe that this whole weekend i never plan anything. I'm stuck in the house whole day long and obviously didn't do anything productive. I have not been blogging for one whole week due to laziness and still catching up with my readings. I had some cleaners to clean the house and tomorrow will be a laundry day. I have to do laundry as well as ironing my clothes. I just hate ironing clothes. I don't mind to pay someone to do it. anyone??
Last night I was out with Stephy and her friend, Vida. It was actually to celebrate Stephy's belated birthday. We had dinner at Chillis, Mid Valley. I was running late but managed to buy her some roses as her belated birthday gift. It was a great gift as apparently she has not been receiving flowers for very long time. Flowers just spice up someone's day ! I didn't order anything extra at Chillis as Stephy ordered so much food which can feed at least 4 persons.
Dinner was good but imagine 3 girls can't decide where to hang out after that. I was a bit stoned due to lack of sleep lately and my brain was dead. Initially, we thought of chilling at Bangsar and last minute plan changed to Poppy Garden, KL since Daniel wanted to go there. I tailed Vida's car to Poppy. We reached there about 10:30pm and the place was still quiet. The cover charge was Rm35 and I had vodka lime which wasn't very nice as it was too sweet. Too much lime and I had to get the bartender to add ice. Daniel and his friends came late and Stephy had to be home by midnight. The moment we said hi to Daniel and his friends plus one round of whisky coke, we had to leave. My mood to club just started but for Stephy's safety sake, we leave together with her. It was a good excuse for me to be home early and sleep early. However, I wasn't so comfortable to hang out with Daniel's friends as they aren't that friendly and i rate them as "weirdos". Hope Daniel is not reading this.
Once again...I'm going through miserable moments. No one to blame but I have asked for it. I know it's shitty but I just can't let go as I seriously want to treasure the present and do not want to think far ahead. G is avoiding me lately. I wasn't sure what happens between us but to sum it all, it's complicated. He wanted to be friends initially but yet he is staying away from me. He is only nice to me whenever he wants something from me but whenever i want to look for him as friends, he is avoiding me totally and been giving me excuses that he is busy. I believe that he is busy with work plus having stress cough (this cough will always stick to him when he is stressed up) but up to the extend that he doesn't reply my sms at all. I begin to doubt myself, am I that hateful ? What's wrong ? I love him as a friend regardless how he had treated me before this. Don't I deserve another chance to be at least good friends since you have been telling everyone that we are still good friends? I admit that I'm weak but been mistreated is seriously torturing. I have told him earlier that if we ever break up, we will never be friends and he assured me that we will. Look at all the mess between us...does he realise that ? How can he be so cruel towards me after been with him for 3 years 3 months and 23 days. I don't care what's going to happen in future but my love for him will never be less. I seriously treasure him and obviously it was painful for him to end this relationship after I have put in so much but looking at the bright side, he is doing it for my own good. What good will that be if he has to treat me this way and let me move on with broken hearts which are scattered everywhere ?
Fon
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