My heart is filled with excitement

Finally I had signed up for Sports Club after 3 years working in DTT. So tomorrow I'm going to Genting with my fellow colleagues and other Sports Club members for a family day trip. It only costs me RM25 which i can enjoy a lunch buffet at coffee terrance (my fav place for buffet) and also entrance to both outdoor and indoor theme park. Hope i can have lots of fun.

Just now a friend of mine wrote me a love quote and I have decided to publish it here in my blog today. Here it goes....

"Don't ever leave the one you love for the one you like, because the one you like will leave you for the one they love"

I'm not sure how true it is but I find that it is a good one. Though I've been in love before this, I can understand that it's unavoidable to have feelings for another guy/girl when you are in a relationship. That's why people will be in a relationship to be with someone or out of a relationship to be with another person. But I do believe one thing, love comes and goes when you least expected. I have been in a relationship twice. In both my relationships, I have been very happy before and also been very sad before. This is the risk that you might be hurt if you open up your heart to someone. I used to think that I will never open up my heart to anyone. Finally I did but love can really make you very happy and can also mess you up. You'll be lucky if you can be happy but it's torturous when you just get hurt and hurt again and again.

I was hurt deeply and I foresee this cut will remain as a scar forever. I'm pretty sure that my heart will never be the same again as I never been so in love with someone before up to the extend that I'm willing to give up my heart and soul just for him. Love takes hostages. The moment he walked out from my life, I feel that I've lost everything. = ( Each day I wake up and think that things will never be the same again. It's such a tough moment to go through. Trust me....it's very difficult when you have to go through the pain and accept the fact that he is no longer in love with you. Nevertheless, I know I can go through it as I want to prove to him that it is his biggest mistake for letting me go especially whenever he feels like it.

I just hate myself for loving him so much....sigh....till now i can feel the chest pain and i can burst into any tears esp memories of him start flashing back.

Fon