You are always my No. 2

After 2 days training and I went back to office today. As usual, my mailbox was full of emails and managed to clear at least 3 quarter of it. Luckily today not many clients "disturb" me so i could concentrate on clearing my emails - basically replying clients' queries and reading work updates. Also, I had some time to share my training course material with my Manager and my Partner apparently want me to have 1 - 2 sharing sessions of what I have learnt during the 2 days training.

I would say that the training was knowledgeable but not 100% applicable to my work. However, it helps me understand more in terms of HRM and may prepare myself to provide quality advisory to clients in future. During the training, I was trying to brush up my networking skills and somehow i could get the hang of it now. Initially, i used to be quite shy to initiate a conversation but the more you do it, it flows naturally and can feel myself getting better and better. Well, perhaps i won't consider myself able to convince another party re our services but being able to initiate a conversation and making myself comfortable to talk to people I first met is already an achievement. I think :p.

Well, I used to be able to share my daily thoughts and conversation with a friend whom i care about a lot. Somehow things didn't work out as it used to be so I'm sharing it all by myself once again and also with my soft toys whom i hug every night on my bed. Though they can't response to what i'm telling them but i can feel that they are listening (I know deep down in my heart that you all are listening).

How do you feel when someone tells you that you are just his/her no.2 ? I'm sure everyone out there wants to be no.1 in everything. No doubt myself - I always want to be no.1 in everything i do. somehow part of me can't take the risk. For example, when comes to compete in a competition, i always have the feeling that i will lose. As such, i ended up perform badly. Being able to build up a strong confidence in everything you do is a courage. I seriously admire people like that. But me, sigh....i just don't see myself to be no.1 in everything i do. Guess....with that I shall conclude that I can only be no.2 !

Fon