It has been a while that I didn't take any MC....this year 2008 is the first time. I was down with gastric pain for the past 2 days. This is due to heartache. I can actually feel the chest pain and it is so difficult to breathe. When my heart is hurt, it really hurts so bad! I will lose appetite and gastric pain will come. I don't like the feeling at all but I just can't help it. I'm very vulnerable.
Just imagine someone just told you that you're no longer important in his life anymore not even as a friend. It hurts :( so bad...it's so bad until i can feel my heart is bleeding non stop. I should not let him get into me but it happened. I can sense that there are more and more understandings between me and him. But i do not know how to tell him that I'm not that kind person whom he thinks I'm. He had made a wrong assumption towards me. Probably, the best solution here is to withdraw myself completely from him if that will make him happier as i know that no point explaining myself to someone so stubborn like him. The drawback of this solution is I will appear as the bad person in his eyes forever. Well, if that is what he wants :(.
However, i know very well that i will always be the best he ever had. I know he will definitely regret some day.
Fon
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