Monday blues....

I'm having monday blues as usual and I'm wearing blue top today....hahah...seriously I just want to tell the whole world that i'm having monday blues.....feel so sleepy the whole day but managed to attend to all my emails from clients.

It was raining when i came out from my office building. Luckily when i reach home, there is no rain at all. Yesterday, I went for an hour full body massage. The masseur concentrated on my shoulder and neck particularly as it was so stiff. I can feel the pain when she pressed on certain points. Nevertheless, it was great ! at least i feel much better now. the soothing music played at Chakras just made want to fall asleep.

After massage, i headed to the curve and i was thinking to buy the HP pouch for my friend, Joane. When i was about to buy, the rain poured heavily. :( I have no choice but to head to ikea to check out some lamps. I intended to buy one for my room as it's seriously very uncool to have only the fluorescent light. Basically, my whole house used only fluorescent lights as it was my dad's idea. He is quite conservative and dislike dim lights. As usual, ikea was so crowded plus the rain. everyone just stayed in to wait for the rain to stop. i managed to buy a lamp. It's a small pink lamp with flower designs. I love it so much ! now my room so much better at night.

BG brought me to Damansara Jaya to have dinner yesterday night. We had claypot rice and it was delicious. We also ordered soup and vege. Overall, it was a nice dinner. However, it was a quiet dinner although the ppl around are making so much noise. I hate the most was that BG doesn't really talk to me which i don't understand why. am i that hateful or just bored? Am hoping BG can treat me just like his other friends one day. He is certainly like a chatter box since i have known him for almost 4 years. I suspect something is bothering him and in fact he has changed to someone i barely know. I'm praying everyday to God and hope God may touch his heart one day and make him realize that there are many people around do care a lot about him especially me and hoping that he knows how to treasure them whenever he could. Sometimes, I'm so pissed that I just want to walk away from BG's life but something is holding me back again and again. Please tell me why......oh please....am i not deserve being a good friend to BG? I just hate this feeling and sometimes i rather just died than to feel miserable and helpless.

Okies...time to go shower ! Hopefully i can feel better after this.

Fon